Saturday, April 23, 2011

Easter Eve

Once again, I had a bad day.  I didn't track anything that I ate, although I was pretty busy cleaning and cooking. I don't even want to know how many calories I ate whilst making the three batches of cookies that I baked today.  I'm pretty sure I ate the equivalent of 3 dozen cookies in batter alone.  At least I didn't overindulge during dinner.  I ate a medium-sized portion of Mexican casserole and drank a bunch of water.  IIIIIIIIII also chowed down on 3 of the cookies that I made today.  Ugh.

I just came back from trying on clothes in my closet to wear to church tomorrow.  After squeezing my fat thighs into my black pants and being unable to button them without puking, I've decided to stick to my old standby, the gray pants.  Now I'm sitting here balancing my computer on my gut, hoping that the heat and rays from it will melt the lard that has overtaken my body.

Tomorrow is a new day, and tomorrow I'll continue on my quest for healthiness and hotness!

Thursday, April 21, 2011

A Mildly Productive Day

As you all know, I'm currently in my "off-quarter" for school, which means a lot of sitting around and feeling fat.  The house is a mess, my room is a complete disaster, and once again, I'm trying to think about how I let myself get this big again.

Today was a day full of cleaning, organizing, more cleaning, cooking, and doing laundry.  I made a Mexican casserole for dinner that, although it wasn't completely healthy, I at a piece and a half (the same amount as my skinny little sister Becky), and called it quits.  I've also been bad about eating the chocolate chip cookies that are laying around, and I need more self control.

Today was a bad day, and I feel fat and depressed tonight.  I just want to get out and get moving and get healthy.  I'm tired of wearing clothes this big.  I want to be able to walk into any store that I want to and buy a pair of jeans that looks fantastic on me.  No more of this plus size BS.  I'm tired of it.  This is it.

So, here are my goals, the dates that I would like to reach them by, and what fun reward I would like to give myself upon completion of those goals.

*Lose 10 pounds by 5/18/2011 (

*Lose 20 pounds by 6/22/2011 (,13076.html)

*Lose 30 pounds by 8/3/2011 (

*Lose 40 pounds by 9/14/2011 ( OR

*Lose 50 pounds by 10/19/2011 (

*Lose 60 pounds by 11/30/2011 (

The search for all of those websites just took me FOREVER, so until next time, goodnight!

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

A Little Bit of Catch-Up.

Hello again to my lovely followers (all two of you).  I see that it has been quite a long time since I've posted, and for that, I apologize.  I have quite a bit of stuff to catch you up on, so sit back, relax, and enjoy.

I passed my National American Veterinary Licensing Exam (aka National Boards), and I was also offered an internship in Elgin, TX.  I will now be one of two equine interns at an amazing hospital as of June!!  I'm so blessed!!

I also finished clinics at the end of March, and now I'm in my "off-quarter".  I already completed an externship at an equine clinic here in Ohio, and I loved it there.  Everyone was so nice and made me feel right at home, AND I was able to see a lot of super cool cases!  My other externship is at the end of May in Texas, and I'm super pumped about it.  I take my Texas State Board Exam on June 6th, so I hope that goes well.  Oath and Hooding is June 11th, and graduation is June 12th.

As far as my diet, the title of this whole blog says it all.  I'm a giant heifer.  I haven't been watching what I eat, unless you count me watching food as I put it in my mouth.  I'm back to being the fattest that I've ever been, and quite frankly, I'm embarrassed.  I'm disappointed in myself for my complete lack of self-control, and I'm disgusted that I let myself get like this again.  Looking at my giant thighs, my huge gut, and my enormous spare tire makes me want to puke.  So, starting today, I'm on the road to a healthier and skinnier me.  I haven't decided whether or not I should post my actual weight on here to monitor my progress and hold myself accountable, so comment and let me know your opinion!

So far today I had:
~ 2 small Tollhouse cookies for breakfast (because I'm cool like that)
~ A tasty salad consisting of:
     * 2 cups of baby mixed greens
     * 1/3 cup of Great Value 2% Reduced Fat Fiesta Blend Shredded Cheese
     * 2 ounces of 98% Fat Free Eckich Virginia Brand Ham
     * A large tomato
     * 2 Tbs. of Kraft Light Zesty Italian Dressing

It was extremely tasty, but I'm still a bit hungry.  I'm going to sit here for about 20 minutes and drink a bunch of water to see if that helps curb my hunger.  In addition, I'll kick back and watch VH1's 40 Most Slimmed Down Celebs for some motivation.

I also started doing some Zumba DVDs that Barb bought months ago.  Today I did the Abs, Buns and Thighs DVD which is about 30 minutes long.  Although it wasn't difficult, I can bet that I'll be feeling it tomorrow.  Tomorrow I'm planning on trying the Rapido! DVD, so we'll see how that goes.  I can just see my fat sloshing around, jiggling with each dance move, and creating tidal waves of lard splashing over the giant shores of my body.  Oh well.  That's why we got the DVDs.  I'm not doing this crap in front of a bunch of skinny wenches who do nothing but exercise anyway.

On another note, dinner smells awesome.  I'm making a pork loin in the crockpot, and it seems pretty darn healthy.  The pork loin is very lean, and I rubbed it with Worcestershire sauce and sprinkled it with Lawry's Seasoned Salt.  I then tucked it into a bed of sauerkraut and dumped two cans of French onion soup over the whole thing.  It smells sooooooo good right now, and it's making my mouth water.

I'll write again soon, and I'll let you know how the pork loin turns out.  Until next time, adios!

Monday, January 3, 2011

Happy New Year!

Well, it's already 2011.  I remember starting vet school and thinking how far away that year sounded, and here it is already.  2010 did not end the way that I really wanted it to, and 2011 did not start the best, either.  Calvin and I went up to my parents' house on Christmas day, and had a very nice day with my family.  As part of my Christmas presents, my parents agreed to get my car painted.  The batch of paint that my car was painted with originally was apparently a faulty batch, and has worn thin and dull too quickly, so it is pink instead of red.  My mom and I went to take my car to get painted, and when we got back home, that's when things started going downhill.  My grandma (my mom's mom) lives with us in a mother-in-law suite attached to our house.  When I walked in the door, I found her standing in the back room, very confused.  As I helped her back to her house, she proceeded to have a medical event that involved her collapsing into my arms, and unresponsiveness all while remaining conscious.  It was extremely frightening, and we called the squad to check her out.  She was then taken to the hospital where she remained for 3 nights for monitoring and diagnostics.  They believe that she experienced some sort of small vascular event or internal seizure (where the brain seizes, but the body does not).  After all of that, the doctors said that they feel that it is in her best interest for safety and monitoring that she be placed in a nursing facility.  This comes as a major blow to our family, as she has been living with us for 16 years.  She is now in a pretty nice place, but it's very hard to know that she's not home.  Around that same time, the flu went around my family.  First my mom got it, then my dad, then my little sister, and then Calvin.  Becky (my little sister) got it on New Year's Eve day, and therefore couldn't come with us to our previously planned event.  Calvin, Barb (my older sister), and I went without her instead, and had a really nice time.  The concert was in Cleveland, and it was the Cleveland Pops Orchestra with Stephanie J. Block and Erin Mackey as guest singers.  It was amazing and I'm glad we got to go.  We got back down to Columbus on Sunday, and I was supposed to start my "holiday" rotation (Equine Surgery) today.  Instead, I woke up with the flu.  Also, I found out that I've been turned down for three internship positions.  In addition to all of that fun stuff, I also hopped back on the scale, and found out that I now need to lose 54 pounds to get down to my goal weight.  Lovely, right?  Oh well, as Joe Brown said, "A challenge is an opportunity to prove your ability to yourself and others."  I just need to remember that in these upcoming months, because I'll be facing challenges left and right.  So, for now, it's time for bed, so until next time, goodnight!